Chicago 365

Chicago 365

CHICAGO 365

Week 1: Giving Chicago 365 days

I have recently moved to Chicago, Il.  Because of the kindness of my bro’s bff,  I am camping out in his living room and my address is P.O. Box Couch.

People keep asking me how long I plan on living out here.  I don’t know.  If someone had told me a year ago I would be living in Chicago in 2010,  I would have looked at him or her and said, “ Eh, I don’t know about that.” But the doors kept opening up here, and I walked through them.  So, I don’t know how long I will be here.

But here is what I do know: God has given me a second chance.  We all wish at some point or another that we could get up, move and leave our former lives behind.  In a way,  I have received that opportunity.  With out going into too much detail, for the last 5-6 years I have not been in a good place –at all- in any aspect of my life.  If you had cut me open, you would have found Pandora’s box of hell! Seriously!  But that box is no more, and I am starting new. 

I will not waste this second chance. I will not take for granted this “re-birth”.  I will not allow that former life to creep back in, even though I know it will fight like hell to do so. I will learn. I will grow.  I will challenge myself.  I will not allow my comfort zone to be my god.  I will accept my shortcomings, my faults, and my sicknesses. I will trust. I will embrace. I will help. I will pay it forward because I don’t have the funds to pay it back to all the people who have helped me over the years. I will stand in awe and be amazed.  I will find beauty.  I will accept that this is my temporary home and that things will not be perfect here.  I will embrace the passions within. I will create. I will  accept that life is a beast that cannot be tamed.  I will open my heart.
I will press on.  I will encourage.  I will trust.  I will let go.

I will allow myself to fall in-love again.

I will love.

So what have I learned this week? Do it afraid.

Until next week.

K!